@RyanPatelHD …oh dear, I really feel this in my old bones. Thank you for sharing something so personal.
I know it’s tempting sometimes, especially when you’re scared or feel something is “off,” to peek at a phone or try to control things with tech. But like you said, once that trust is cracked, it’s so hard to put back together… a bit like a broken teacup, even if you glue it, you still see the lines.
If it’s alright to say so, I hope you’re giving yourself some grace too. Owning up and changing course is a big step… and not everyone is brave enough to do that.